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| R.I.P Patrick Ang <3
Yes, Pat passed away last night -.-
Im not going to say exactly what happened, I have emailed those of you who would know/care. Thanks and Pat this is from all your friends in Singapore, Brunei and family in America and stuff:
Thanks for being such a great friend and we hope the choice you have decided brings you to a happier life! We will always remember you..
Love all your friends and family <3
Bye Pat and this site wont be used anymore, but keep it for Pats rememberance!
Shantelle Roaden
(pats frien)
R.I.P Patrick Ang <3
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| arghh i just hadd to let this out..read on if yu want to be bore.
this is not to anyone? GAH i dennu..;
Why did you do this to me? I wish I could just die, then I wouldn't be a problem to everyone. Whenever I'm in the house it is always fighting. I want out of all of it. Please make it all stop. Take the confusion away. Im not going to ay Im all alone and noe one care, because out there i NOE they do, and thanks to them <3 I can't make it through school, I cause my family problems and I can't do it. I'm a failure in everything that is important to me. The only way out of this is to die?? mel i see yu nodding yu head to that statement, but write now its it. How can I trust anyone? I want to say goodbye to mom, dad and my friends and family. you mean more to me than my life. I'm sorry I have caused you so many problems and fights. Why can't I have a talk with anyone. as i sit here i could just go up to Mom and tell her, but im not like Carly i cant do that. im not that open/emotional -.- Please someone do something so I can't feel the hurt anymore. I hurt so bad, what can I do? I'm trying to watch TV but I don't know what I'm watching. It's so lonely here. I want to sleep but it just won't come. I'm so tired of hurting and being a lone. I keep thinking about the pills in the cabinet but I'm scared. My head hurts so much from crying but if I take anything for it I'm scared I won't stop and I would want to stop. Nobody cares why should I? I cause problems for everyone I care about so why should I stay. Why am I such a terrible person. Nothing I do is right. I don't understand. I don't have any choice in the matter. To make everything better I have to die. I can't make it right by living. I'm so scared I want out but oh I don't know. im so cold, please do something. I can't stand this empty feeling that I'm having. My head is horrible. Stop the pounding it hurts so much. I have no control over anything in my life. I'm breaking into pieces.
Somebody do something? eh yur doing enough please and thanks and sorryyyyyyy! IM SORRYYYYY argh im sorry somebody do something? your all doing to much stop it stop praying fo me im not looking for pity I DONT DESERVE THIS.
-Pat
is the only way out of this to die eh?
you would all answer no, and yu dont no why i even think of that question.
i feel dizzy. stop this. whats that? | | |
| hei.
well, alot has happened just this night, maybee the past hour. good/bad things have happened.
-ive had help from the greatest people/friends ever ;] (good)
-annd i dont no how to overcome this -.- (bad)
well theyre the main things thats been happening, i mess up so much everything i do is a mistake. sorry an outburst there, but i have a bit to say, read on if yu want to be bored :]
ive explained it alot on msn and in emails and i dnt feel like explaining much more, except will it be like this the rest of my life? the scars are cut deep, emotionally. will they ever heal? i so badly want to overcome this. one part of my wants 2 leave this place so badly and the other cant do it to mom and dad again, and my friends/family. i saw mom after Carr passed and she wasnt entirely well..i dont want to do this to her again.. -.- gah
mel told me a very good lesson ;] its about god and y he died for us and i dont want to go in 2 great detail, but wen i pretend 2 be someone else and if i knew me, pat i would think i was horrible and stuff. i dont deserve all this and god died for us. maybe i should go 2 church more. god = <3 ?
anyway mel and jay have been sooo great 2 me the last hour, actually the whole time. but watever theyve been there fo me fo all different times.. THANKS SO MUCH. i cant thank yu enough im sry i want to repay yu oneday ;] thanks..
im not in control of my self, andthing could happen next i dnt want 2 'scare' some ppl but relly, anything could happen. and im seriously i feel like this demon inside of me is controlling me 2 do bad stuff.. hrmm it sounds weird i no but yeh..
i suck..-.-
-pat
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| Your my miracle, you were -.- and now youve gone and left me here. left me with misery. ~ wu liao >.< i so badly want to leave this place and join yu up there ^^.. im sorry in the chatbox; esther, stephanie, dra ~ im sorry. </3 i really am.. and these are just words! ill make it up 2 u one day..i promise. we dont no each other and altho somethings rnt possible becus of that..ill do nething [possible] fo yu guys..thanks fo everything..thanks fo teaching me that lesson and im sorry </3 truley, madley, deeply =P im am..thanks again, pat xx heres something fo yu
It's been a long and winding journey
But I'm finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces
Walking back into the light
To the sunset of your glory
Where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling
When I look into your eyes
My dreams came true
When I found you
I found you, my miracle
If you could see what I see
That you're the answer to my prayers
And if you can feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here
Standing here before you
Feels like I've been born again
Every breath is your love
Every heartbeat speaks your name
My dreams came true
Right here in front of you
My miracle
If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
If you could feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here
Brought me here to be with you
I'd be forever grateful (oh forever grateful)
My dreams came true
When I found you
My miracle
If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
If you could feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here
If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
If you could feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here
i miss yu more than ever.. come bk..or ill come visit yu and it wont be temporary ;] i promise..thanks and sorry <3 | | |
| NEVER AGAIN . . .
Lets just stop this..please and I wont go on like this ~ none of us will..again i say ; im sorry fo everything i have done and i mean it. i relly do -.- thanks always and goodbyeeh ~
Take care all, Pat xxx
cut me deep and kill me hard, done have pity fo me, i dont deserve yur kind heart. i wont to leave this place..take me somwhere peacful <3
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